So, as I sit in the backseat of my roommate's boyfriend's car, on our way back to Wilmington from N. Charleston, I decided to give you my thoughts on the John Mayer concert I just witnessed.
It was amazing!!!!!!! If you follow me on Twitter, you will know what songs John played because I tweeted the whole set list as it was going on. Mostly for my own benefit. I don't want to forget what songs he played, and I had no other means of remembering all of them.
This was my 6th time seeing John Mayer live, and every time I see him, I feel like he gets better. I am not going to say that this was the best show I've seen by him (because that goes to the 3rd time I saw him-in CO), but this was good.Each and every time he amazes me with how good he is. He has the ability to make you laugh (because he is witty in between his songs), cry (especially if you are emotionally attached to a song), smile, dance, sway, etc. Besides Hanson and Tyler Hilton, I cannot think of anyone I like seeing live more than John Mayer.
You know what I was thinking about while I was watching my boyfriend on stage singing his heart out? This is the first time that I've seen John Mayer, and have been content with my life. I'm not going through any emotional dramas (except dealing with the fact that I'm my only one of my friends who is still single), and I haven't become emotionally attached to any of his songs on this new album. It was nice to be able to just enjoy the show for once, instead of freaking out and hoping and praying that he would play the song I truly NEEDED to hear. This time, I was able to enjoy the music, his voice, and of course...his epic guitar playing. I didn't hope, or freak out in anticipation of "In Repair" or "Something's Missing" (he didn't even play those ones anyway), and I was able to enjoy each and every song for what they were. Which is fantastic songs.
I throughly enjoyed myself this time around. I now wish I had tickets to the Greensboro, NC show in March. I'm happy, and I can now go to bed with a smile on my face :)
Monday, February 8, 2010
Wednesday, February 3, 2010
After calming down and having time to stop and taking the steps I needed to take to make myself a little happier, I've realized that I was totally over-reacting yesterday while writing that last post.
Because my hormones go COMPLETELY out of whack when it is that time of the month for me, I knew that was one of the reasons why I was so upset yesterday (I'm not even looking forward to what type of mood swings I'll be having while I'm pregnant someday).
After my cry session in the morning, I had to pull myself together and get to class. I had decided to leave a little early to get some coffee from my coffee shop, and while I was there, I ran into one of my favorite people on earth (well, I didn't really run into him because he was working, but he doesn't normally work at my store). Even though he didn't know what was going on, or that I had been crying all morning...just talking to him made me feel much better. He has a way of making me laugh all the time. It's great. So, I left to go to class, and the girls that I sit with also made me feel better. They all were able to make me forget about what I had been going through in the morning, and just like Clay at the coffee shop...they didn't know they were turning my mood from rock bottom to really great.
Later that night, I had decided to call my older sister. I haven't been able to trust her in a long time. She has made some pretty stupid decisions that have made me put her aside. It sounds wrong, but if you knew the WHOLE story (instead of just the stuff I have written about occassionally), you'd understand. But the story this time is that her husband has left her, and THIS time she has filed divorce papers (although the state of Indiana won't let the divorce go through until the baby is born) and THIS time she actually has a protection order against him. She is struggling, and I had a feeling that maybe now...I needed her too. So I called her. And we talked for a long time. It felt good. She told me what was going on, and I told her what was happening in my life. We talked about how fun it would be if she and the kids moved to North Carolina to live with me, about a dream I had in which my two oldest nephews and I were on a boat and the boys were wearing sailing outfits. It was nice for the both of us to escape our worlds for a few seconds and have some sister bonding time. After awhile, Tara needed to get the kids ready for bed, but instead of asking me to hang up, she had let me talk to my neice, Scarlett. It was very nice to talk to Scarlett. The two of us talked on the phone for a very long time, and it was an actual conversation. As much as I hate that she is getting older, I love it at the same time, because now she tells me about the boys that she has a crush on, and she told me how she felt about things, and what she was learning in school. She and I could hold a conversation for a long time, and she kept coming up with new topics to talk about. SHE kept the conversation rolling. Before, when Rob was still around, she was very short with her answers, never added anything to the conversation and was boring to talk to. But now it's different.
And then today, I got a text message from the lovely Vi Tran. She totally made my day. I love that girl!!!! Thanks so much Vi! That text message made me feel so good, and I'm so glad that you and I are friends!
Anyway, I've got to finish a paper. Peace out!
Because my hormones go COMPLETELY out of whack when it is that time of the month for me, I knew that was one of the reasons why I was so upset yesterday (I'm not even looking forward to what type of mood swings I'll be having while I'm pregnant someday).
After my cry session in the morning, I had to pull myself together and get to class. I had decided to leave a little early to get some coffee from my coffee shop, and while I was there, I ran into one of my favorite people on earth (well, I didn't really run into him because he was working, but he doesn't normally work at my store). Even though he didn't know what was going on, or that I had been crying all morning...just talking to him made me feel much better. He has a way of making me laugh all the time. It's great. So, I left to go to class, and the girls that I sit with also made me feel better. They all were able to make me forget about what I had been going through in the morning, and just like Clay at the coffee shop...they didn't know they were turning my mood from rock bottom to really great.
Later that night, I had decided to call my older sister. I haven't been able to trust her in a long time. She has made some pretty stupid decisions that have made me put her aside. It sounds wrong, but if you knew the WHOLE story (instead of just the stuff I have written about occassionally), you'd understand. But the story this time is that her husband has left her, and THIS time she has filed divorce papers (although the state of Indiana won't let the divorce go through until the baby is born) and THIS time she actually has a protection order against him. She is struggling, and I had a feeling that maybe now...I needed her too. So I called her. And we talked for a long time. It felt good. She told me what was going on, and I told her what was happening in my life. We talked about how fun it would be if she and the kids moved to North Carolina to live with me, about a dream I had in which my two oldest nephews and I were on a boat and the boys were wearing sailing outfits. It was nice for the both of us to escape our worlds for a few seconds and have some sister bonding time. After awhile, Tara needed to get the kids ready for bed, but instead of asking me to hang up, she had let me talk to my neice, Scarlett. It was very nice to talk to Scarlett. The two of us talked on the phone for a very long time, and it was an actual conversation. As much as I hate that she is getting older, I love it at the same time, because now she tells me about the boys that she has a crush on, and she told me how she felt about things, and what she was learning in school. She and I could hold a conversation for a long time, and she kept coming up with new topics to talk about. SHE kept the conversation rolling. Before, when Rob was still around, she was very short with her answers, never added anything to the conversation and was boring to talk to. But now it's different.
And then today, I got a text message from the lovely Vi Tran. She totally made my day. I love that girl!!!! Thanks so much Vi! That text message made me feel so good, and I'm so glad that you and I are friends!
Anyway, I've got to finish a paper. Peace out!
Tuesday, February 2, 2010
This past month has been a hard one for me. I came back to North Carolina facing a financial crisis that I had never had to face before. I had started a new semester that had promised to be one of the most demanding semesters yet. I continued to work at my job, loathing every minute of it. My roommate informed me that she is moving out. And, I started feel a friendship starting to distant itself.
My best friend in Wilmington has been great. She has been there for me in ways that she will probably never know. She was there for me when I was feeling so lonely, and needed a friend. She invited me over for dinner on numerous occasions (which was great especially when I couldn't afford to eat). She listened to me complain about tedious things such as homework, and paper writing, and my job. But lately, I feel as though she is moving onward. Like, she is bored with me and she wants something else.
Can you blame her? She is out of school, has a real job (that is mostly exciting) and she is a really cool person. She is able to go out to dinner, and to go shopping, and get things that she wants. She has free time to hang out, she doesn't have to read a chapter in her textbooks, and she doesn't have to write papers anymore. She doesn't have a boring, monotonous (Sp?) job where people create drama because they are bored. She makes money. She is taking the steps necessary to eat right and stay fit. She is moving on.
When I really take a look at it, who would really want to be my friend anyway? I can't afford to go out to lunch, or dinner. I can't afford to go shopping. I can barely afford to feed myself. I look like a cow when standing next to most people. I definitely have a hard time eating right and staying fit (when you can't afford to eat well, or don't have the time to plan out meals.....it doesn't work that well). All I talk about is Dorothy or school. Those two things are the only thing I have. Who wants a friend who only talks about the stupid things her dog does, or what the students in the middle school class did that afternoon. No one. Which is why I don't blame Lauren for finding new friends, and leaving me in the dust. Which is also why I don't blame Laura for abandoning me and making someone else live with me.
Yes, I am socially awkward. Yes, I have a hard time striking up conversations. Yes, I get nervous when I ask people to hang out with me (even if we've been friends forever). I may not be all that self confident, and my self esteem may be very low, but I still need a friend. I still need someone that I can feel comfortable talking to. I may talk a lot about Dorothy, or about school....but I only use that as fillers. I have actually got a ton of things to talk about...I just don't let anyone in. No one is interested in what I have to say. I've seen the looks of boredom as I talk about my family. I've been interrupted while talking about something that's important to me. That's why I keep things short and simple: "Hey, listen to this funny thing that happened to me and Dorothy while we were at Petsmart today." No one is forced to listen to me express concern about my mother's well being. No one has to listen to me tell them that my older sister's children were taken away from her (she got them back, by the way) and how I felt more lost, helpless, and scared during those 5 days than I have ever felt before. No one has to judge me for being in school longer than I had anticipated, or for being so broke all the time, or for being 23 and still living with roommates, and not having a career.
I don't blame Lauren for finding new friends, and hanging out with her mom on the weekends. I don't blame Lauren for not telling me that she is going on a work-related road trip this week. I don't blame Lauren for thinking that I'm boring, and uneventful, and an embarrassment. I don't. Because, I think those things about me as well.
I would find it hard to be my friend too.
My best friend in Wilmington has been great. She has been there for me in ways that she will probably never know. She was there for me when I was feeling so lonely, and needed a friend. She invited me over for dinner on numerous occasions (which was great especially when I couldn't afford to eat). She listened to me complain about tedious things such as homework, and paper writing, and my job. But lately, I feel as though she is moving onward. Like, she is bored with me and she wants something else.
Can you blame her? She is out of school, has a real job (that is mostly exciting) and she is a really cool person. She is able to go out to dinner, and to go shopping, and get things that she wants. She has free time to hang out, she doesn't have to read a chapter in her textbooks, and she doesn't have to write papers anymore. She doesn't have a boring, monotonous (Sp?) job where people create drama because they are bored. She makes money. She is taking the steps necessary to eat right and stay fit. She is moving on.
When I really take a look at it, who would really want to be my friend anyway? I can't afford to go out to lunch, or dinner. I can't afford to go shopping. I can barely afford to feed myself. I look like a cow when standing next to most people. I definitely have a hard time eating right and staying fit (when you can't afford to eat well, or don't have the time to plan out meals.....it doesn't work that well). All I talk about is Dorothy or school. Those two things are the only thing I have. Who wants a friend who only talks about the stupid things her dog does, or what the students in the middle school class did that afternoon. No one. Which is why I don't blame Lauren for finding new friends, and leaving me in the dust. Which is also why I don't blame Laura for abandoning me and making someone else live with me.
Yes, I am socially awkward. Yes, I have a hard time striking up conversations. Yes, I get nervous when I ask people to hang out with me (even if we've been friends forever). I may not be all that self confident, and my self esteem may be very low, but I still need a friend. I still need someone that I can feel comfortable talking to. I may talk a lot about Dorothy, or about school....but I only use that as fillers. I have actually got a ton of things to talk about...I just don't let anyone in. No one is interested in what I have to say. I've seen the looks of boredom as I talk about my family. I've been interrupted while talking about something that's important to me. That's why I keep things short and simple: "Hey, listen to this funny thing that happened to me and Dorothy while we were at Petsmart today." No one is forced to listen to me express concern about my mother's well being. No one has to listen to me tell them that my older sister's children were taken away from her (she got them back, by the way) and how I felt more lost, helpless, and scared during those 5 days than I have ever felt before. No one has to judge me for being in school longer than I had anticipated, or for being so broke all the time, or for being 23 and still living with roommates, and not having a career.
I don't blame Lauren for finding new friends, and hanging out with her mom on the weekends. I don't blame Lauren for not telling me that she is going on a work-related road trip this week. I don't blame Lauren for thinking that I'm boring, and uneventful, and an embarrassment. I don't. Because, I think those things about me as well.
I would find it hard to be my friend too.
Friday, January 29, 2010
Greek
One of my favorite shows on ABC Family is "Greek." I missed all of last season, and I am totally lost while watching this season premiere. Of course I would be lost. Of course great, awesome things happened in the season that I didn't watch. Now, I feel like I can't watch this season until I am all caught up. Ugh!
Saturday, January 23, 2010
Conan's Farewell.
You will be missed, Conan....however I'M SUPER STOKED TO SEE YOU ON ANOTHER NETWORK in 7 short months
Cool song, Jimmy. This is why you are seriously the best :)
Thursday, January 21, 2010
the fate of the kids.
I don't know the details.
All I know is that I got a facebook message from my cousin telling me that Tara's kids were taken away from her because someone finally reported her to Social Services.
Since I don't know all the details, and I don't know what happened, all I can say is I don't understand. I don't know why her kids were taken away from her. She has been working with a case worker for a long time. Why take her kids now?
I don't know how to feel about it.
I don't want to think about it.
Am I a bad person for not really feeling any pain? Is it wrong that I have indifferent feelings about the whereabouts of my niece and nephews? Is it wrong that in the back of my mind, I am acting like a little kid, sticking out my tongue at my older sister while saying "I told you so! I told you so! You should have listened to all of us when we told you to SHAPE UP OR YOU WILL LOSE THEM!"
Is it wrong?
Am I a terrible person?
All I know is that I got a facebook message from my cousin telling me that Tara's kids were taken away from her because someone finally reported her to Social Services.
Since I don't know all the details, and I don't know what happened, all I can say is I don't understand. I don't know why her kids were taken away from her. She has been working with a case worker for a long time. Why take her kids now?
I don't know how to feel about it.
I don't want to think about it.
Am I a bad person for not really feeling any pain? Is it wrong that I have indifferent feelings about the whereabouts of my niece and nephews? Is it wrong that in the back of my mind, I am acting like a little kid, sticking out my tongue at my older sister while saying "I told you so! I told you so! You should have listened to all of us when we told you to SHAPE UP OR YOU WILL LOSE THEM!"
Is it wrong?
Am I a terrible person?
Sunday, January 17, 2010
loneliness
I do my best thinking and reflecting while I'm on my daily walk with Dorothy. Sometimes, I come up with some of the BEST things to say in a blog, and then the minute I walk into my house, I lose it. It's so sad, actually. Because I come up with some really great things to say, and since I'm not a good writer anyway.....it frustrates me. I wish I had a little device that was in my brain that I could turn on to record my thoughts, so I could remember them.
And so that one of my reasons for writing. I'm lost for words, and I'm bored. I am watching the Golden Globes, debating whether or not I want to stop watching them...take a shower...and go to bed. Or watch "Pretty In Pink." Or read my new book (I've finished reading 'The Nanny Diaries' and have just started 'Daniel Isn't Talking'). Or just lay down in my bed, lights off, listening to music. So many possibilities.
It's so "fun" being this broke. I don't do anything. Dorothy and I have spent the whole weekend at home (minus when I was at work), and we have done a whole lot of nothing. I've searched the house for loose change (because that adds up), and we have taken a lot of walks. It's kind of pathetic really, but it's also very lonely. Lauren has been in Oak Island all weekend because her mother has rented a beach house and is staying there for the next few months. My roommate is slowly moving out of the apartment and into her boyfriend's apartment. I don't have any other friends and it's depressing, really. It's a good thing that I have Dorothy because I would be TOTALLY lost without her. Just like I was before I got her....lonely.
I'm really surprised that I haven't really gone crazy this weekend. I've literally had no human interaction (except for with coworkers and customers) all weekend. It's hard to deal with, but at the same time...it really makes me think....
What if I spend so much time alone, that I start to not want the company of another human? What if I get so used to being alone, and hanging out with Dorothy all the time, that I let myself become a total recluse?
In the building that sits next to my house (the building that Lauren lives in) there are two other women. One lives on the top floor, and one lives in the basement. Both are single. Both don't have families (well...I guess the one on the top floor does, but she never sees them. They live in Arizona, I think). Both are in their 40s (at least). The one that lives on the top floor passes her time getting into every one's business in her building. She knows when Lauren leaves her house, and when she comes home. Hell, she even knows when I get home from school/work/volunteering. She makes it her business to know your business. The one that lives in the basement is never seen. The only time she comes outside is when she takes her little dog outside to go potty. She is an alcoholic, and occasionally causes a ruckus. I don't want to end up like either of those ladies. I want to grow up to have a significant other, or at least some friends. I don't want to love to be by myself.
But yet, somehow...I know that I won't end up that way. I know that if I happen to be on that path of living my life alone...I'll just move home to be closer to family. And I also know that because I want to have kids so badly, that before I get too old...I'll adopt. So I know that I won't be alone.
It just scares me.
And so that one of my reasons for writing. I'm lost for words, and I'm bored. I am watching the Golden Globes, debating whether or not I want to stop watching them...take a shower...and go to bed. Or watch "Pretty In Pink." Or read my new book (I've finished reading 'The Nanny Diaries' and have just started 'Daniel Isn't Talking'). Or just lay down in my bed, lights off, listening to music. So many possibilities.
It's so "fun" being this broke. I don't do anything. Dorothy and I have spent the whole weekend at home (minus when I was at work), and we have done a whole lot of nothing. I've searched the house for loose change (because that adds up), and we have taken a lot of walks. It's kind of pathetic really, but it's also very lonely. Lauren has been in Oak Island all weekend because her mother has rented a beach house and is staying there for the next few months. My roommate is slowly moving out of the apartment and into her boyfriend's apartment. I don't have any other friends and it's depressing, really. It's a good thing that I have Dorothy because I would be TOTALLY lost without her. Just like I was before I got her....lonely.
I'm really surprised that I haven't really gone crazy this weekend. I've literally had no human interaction (except for with coworkers and customers) all weekend. It's hard to deal with, but at the same time...it really makes me think....
What if I spend so much time alone, that I start to not want the company of another human? What if I get so used to being alone, and hanging out with Dorothy all the time, that I let myself become a total recluse?
In the building that sits next to my house (the building that Lauren lives in) there are two other women. One lives on the top floor, and one lives in the basement. Both are single. Both don't have families (well...I guess the one on the top floor does, but she never sees them. They live in Arizona, I think). Both are in their 40s (at least). The one that lives on the top floor passes her time getting into every one's business in her building. She knows when Lauren leaves her house, and when she comes home. Hell, she even knows when I get home from school/work/volunteering. She makes it her business to know your business. The one that lives in the basement is never seen. The only time she comes outside is when she takes her little dog outside to go potty. She is an alcoholic, and occasionally causes a ruckus. I don't want to end up like either of those ladies. I want to grow up to have a significant other, or at least some friends. I don't want to love to be by myself.
But yet, somehow...I know that I won't end up that way. I know that if I happen to be on that path of living my life alone...I'll just move home to be closer to family. And I also know that because I want to have kids so badly, that before I get too old...I'll adopt. So I know that I won't be alone.
It just scares me.
Thursday, January 7, 2010
Money, Money, Money....MONEY!
Alright.
It's money.
I have absolutely no money. I believe to my name, right now...I have about $200. And I still have to pay for tuition, a car payment, and two credit cards.
I went to financial aid today to ask them what my options were to try to get more money. They basically had no options except for my mom and dad trying to get a federal PLUS loan, which is something that they have already done for me (and I'm paying it back). So, they are trying that again (because we were pleasantly surprised the last time) and even if they aren't approved, I get $8,000. but still. That's not going to help me pay for my bills this month.
I know that things aren't going to get better when I am graduated, because I will then have to start paying off student loans, and will be getting a pretty small paycheck (if I get a job right away).
I guess the only steps I can take right now are these that I have come up with:
1- Be VERY careful with my money -- I'm not going to spend money on things that I don't need. Even if I do need something....spend the least amount I can.
2- Start looking for another job -- this is going to require that I revamp my resume...and look for something that is not only flexible with my school schedule, but also pays more than my current job does, AND goes along with what I want to do when I graduate.
3- Prioritize bills -- Although my worst nightmare is not being able to pay a bill, it looks like I'm going to have to let one or two slip this month. Rent, and car get paid first. They are the two things I really TRULY need. Shelter and transportation. Then, I will work on paying the bills that I can afford. I really hate saying that, and I really hate doing it, but it's something that I've got to do.
4- Apply for in-state tuition again -- it's a long shot, but I'm going to keep doing it until I have that in-state tuition. I would be saving a CRAP TON of money if I were paying in-state tuition.
4- Pray -- I can work as hard as a dog, and I can try to do everything in my power to get myself some more money, but in all reality, I don't have control over everything. I can only pray for some help.
I know that I have made money mistakes in the past (HUGE ones) and I know that eventually, I'll fix these mistakes. I also know that I have a strong support system that isn't going to let me crash and burn (if that's what it all comes down to).
I tend to get a little over dramatic and I think about the worst possible scenarios all the time, and before I really had a chance to stop and think about what was going on, I started freaking out because I felt like all of my hopes and dreams were being shattered, right before my eyes. But, I'm going to be okay. I may be in way over my head in debt, but it's not like I can't get out of it. Eventually......someday.....I will. It's not in my immediate future, but it's there.
I think I'm almost done freaking out.
Almost.
It's money.
I have absolutely no money. I believe to my name, right now...I have about $200. And I still have to pay for tuition, a car payment, and two credit cards.
I went to financial aid today to ask them what my options were to try to get more money. They basically had no options except for my mom and dad trying to get a federal PLUS loan, which is something that they have already done for me (and I'm paying it back). So, they are trying that again (because we were pleasantly surprised the last time) and even if they aren't approved, I get $8,000. but still. That's not going to help me pay for my bills this month.
I know that things aren't going to get better when I am graduated, because I will then have to start paying off student loans, and will be getting a pretty small paycheck (if I get a job right away).
I guess the only steps I can take right now are these that I have come up with:
1- Be VERY careful with my money -- I'm not going to spend money on things that I don't need. Even if I do need something....spend the least amount I can.
2- Start looking for another job -- this is going to require that I revamp my resume...and look for something that is not only flexible with my school schedule, but also pays more than my current job does, AND goes along with what I want to do when I graduate.
3- Prioritize bills -- Although my worst nightmare is not being able to pay a bill, it looks like I'm going to have to let one or two slip this month. Rent, and car get paid first. They are the two things I really TRULY need. Shelter and transportation. Then, I will work on paying the bills that I can afford. I really hate saying that, and I really hate doing it, but it's something that I've got to do.
4- Apply for in-state tuition again -- it's a long shot, but I'm going to keep doing it until I have that in-state tuition. I would be saving a CRAP TON of money if I were paying in-state tuition.
4- Pray -- I can work as hard as a dog, and I can try to do everything in my power to get myself some more money, but in all reality, I don't have control over everything. I can only pray for some help.
I know that I have made money mistakes in the past (HUGE ones) and I know that eventually, I'll fix these mistakes. I also know that I have a strong support system that isn't going to let me crash and burn (if that's what it all comes down to).
I tend to get a little over dramatic and I think about the worst possible scenarios all the time, and before I really had a chance to stop and think about what was going on, I started freaking out because I felt like all of my hopes and dreams were being shattered, right before my eyes. But, I'm going to be okay. I may be in way over my head in debt, but it's not like I can't get out of it. Eventually......someday.....I will. It's not in my immediate future, but it's there.
I think I'm almost done freaking out.
Almost.
Tuesday, January 5, 2010
New Year=New Resolutions
Welcome back to Wilmington, me! Its good to see you back! Everyone missed you.
Not really. I'm sure that the only one that missed me was Dorothy, but you know what? That's all that counts.
The spring semester starts tomorrow and I am excited to get it started. Only because the sooner it gets started, the sooner it gets over with! With this semester being the second to last semester of taking classes, I'm sure you can only imagine how anxious I am to get back to school. I'm also excited to see my classmates again. A couple of them are super sool, and its been awhile since I've seen them. Oh, and I'm excited to work on getting my GPA back up to where I would like it to be. I'm at a cumulative of about a 3.3, and I need it to be higher for my own satisfaction.
So, the new decade has made its way here! Did any of you make any new years resolutions? I did. Here they are:
1- Floss teeth daily -- so far...so good :) its amazing how much cleaner your mouth feels after flossing ;)
2- Stop procrastinating -- most of the stress I felt last semester was due to how bad I procrastinated. I seriously left everything to the very last second, and I'm not going to do that this semester, or any other semester. Its not fair to me, and obviously my grades suffered because of the procrastination.
3-Have one credit card paid off and cancelled -- Let's face it. I have this as a New Year's Resolution every year, and as much as I would love to follow through on it....it never happens. I don't make enough money to pay off a credit card in a year (sad, huh?) but that doesn't mean that I shouldn't stop trying. I work hard to rearrange my budget so I can pay a little more than the minimum payment every month, and I'm working toward it. So that is really all a resolution is about...right? (Did any of that make sense??? I just got bombarded with printer issues AND my roommate came home in the middle of that paragraph and I don't really feel like re-reading it and writing it all over again)
4-Be more outgoing and make more friends -- I'm am the QUEEN of staying in by myself and watching movies all night. I'm also the queen of being super shy and not talking to people that I think are pretty cool. And, I'm the queen of complaining about how I don't have anyone to talk to, or to hang out with. I realized this is my fault because I'm not making the effort to have friends. So, that is exactly why this resolution was set.
5-Get a new job -- this one is self explanatory. I hate my job. I don't make enough money. I need a new one. Simple as that :)
Not really. I'm sure that the only one that missed me was Dorothy, but you know what? That's all that counts.
The spring semester starts tomorrow and I am excited to get it started. Only because the sooner it gets started, the sooner it gets over with! With this semester being the second to last semester of taking classes, I'm sure you can only imagine how anxious I am to get back to school. I'm also excited to see my classmates again. A couple of them are super sool, and its been awhile since I've seen them. Oh, and I'm excited to work on getting my GPA back up to where I would like it to be. I'm at a cumulative of about a 3.3, and I need it to be higher for my own satisfaction.
So, the new decade has made its way here! Did any of you make any new years resolutions? I did. Here they are:
1- Floss teeth daily -- so far...so good :) its amazing how much cleaner your mouth feels after flossing ;)
2- Stop procrastinating -- most of the stress I felt last semester was due to how bad I procrastinated. I seriously left everything to the very last second, and I'm not going to do that this semester, or any other semester. Its not fair to me, and obviously my grades suffered because of the procrastination.
3-Have one credit card paid off and cancelled -- Let's face it. I have this as a New Year's Resolution every year, and as much as I would love to follow through on it....it never happens. I don't make enough money to pay off a credit card in a year (sad, huh?) but that doesn't mean that I shouldn't stop trying. I work hard to rearrange my budget so I can pay a little more than the minimum payment every month, and I'm working toward it. So that is really all a resolution is about...right? (Did any of that make sense??? I just got bombarded with printer issues AND my roommate came home in the middle of that paragraph and I don't really feel like re-reading it and writing it all over again)
4-Be more outgoing and make more friends -- I'm am the QUEEN of staying in by myself and watching movies all night. I'm also the queen of being super shy and not talking to people that I think are pretty cool. And, I'm the queen of complaining about how I don't have anyone to talk to, or to hang out with. I realized this is my fault because I'm not making the effort to have friends. So, that is exactly why this resolution was set.
5-Get a new job -- this one is self explanatory. I hate my job. I don't make enough money. I need a new one. Simple as that :)
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