Life as I know it...

...is busy, busy, busy!

With only 4 weeks left of the semester, I am starting to feel the wrath of projects and major papers. It stinks, but you got to go what you've got to go do graduate. Luckily, there are only 4 more weeks left of projects and papers. Next semester, I won't be obligated to do the kind of work that I am required to do this semester. The work that i will be doing next semester is finally RELEVANT to what I will be doing, and I can't even explain to you how excited I am to get to this stage in my life.

As graduation gets closer, my feelings of wanting to be a real adult get stronger. I want to get out of debt, have a real job, live with my boyfriend, and stop living in the constant feeling of being in limbo. With the holidays coming up, and seeing all of the decorations and all of the fancy home cookbooks and magazines with the sweet recipes in them, I can't wait to have my own home and the time to decorate and to cook holiday themed dishes!

Jason and I are still doing very well. We've been together for 7 months now, and the only thing that would make me happier in the relationship is living with him. We definitely are not ready for that big step, but it would be nice to come home to him every night, and cook dinner with him more than twice a week. He says that he feels the same way, but we both have agreed that living together will not be an option for a while. I have a very messy financial situation to clean up before we even start to think about living together, and he feels he still needs space. Which is good. The fact that we don't see each other every night and that we have time to miss each other is important this early in the relationship. I've known way too many people that don't take time for themselves and surround themselves with their loved one so much that they become so dependent on that person that when that person isn't around, they can't function correctly. I know that for some, they want that kind of relationship....but not us. Jason and I love that we are our own separate beings.

Another totally awesome thing about Jason is that he introduced me to his church. I've never really been a religious person. I was baptized Catholic, and I went to Catholic church off and on since I was in 8th grade, but I never really felt anything. But one day, Jason asked me if I would like to go to church with him, and I went, and it's awesome. It's a nondenominational community church, and I feel more at home there than I have anywhere else in Wilmington. Since I have started attending this church, I've started to explore my faith a little more and I've dove into the Bible a little bit and I'm realizing that although I will never ever be one of 'THOSE' Christians, I still believe in Jesus, and I know that He loves me. It's been an awesome experience thus far, and I'm excited to see where this leads.

Work is awesome. I love it...most days. There are days when I don't feel like working all day Saturday, or even for a couple of hours on Sunday, but I have to do it. My school schedule doesn't allow me to work very much during the school week and I need to work in order to pay the bills that I can pay. I am gaining a lot of experience while working with these kids, and I'm developing skills that I know will help me in my classroom (when I get one!).

I know I haven't updated this blog in a long time. i have just been so busy, and honestly, I don't even think about updating. I feel like I have nothing to write about, and for a long time...I wasn't doing anything but complaining and that was not helping me. I'm going to try to continue to update more regularly, but I am only going to write about positive things. I'm a firm believer in whatever energy you bring out into the universe is the kind of energy you are going to get back. So, I'm bringing positive energy, and hoping that is what comes back!